Posts Tagged ‘bipolar’

Over at my bipolar blog Bipolar Realm I’ve written a trinity of articles chronicling my journey to a diagnosis of bipolar in November 2012. There’s even some Pink Floyd references.

Please pop along and have a read.

Travelling from unipolar to bipolar, part 1: 1978 – 2011

Travelling from unipolar to bipolar, part 2: 2011 – 2012

Travelling from unipolar to bipolar, part 3: 2012 – present


For the longest time I’ve been blogging about my bipolar here. In amongst all the geeky musings came occasional bits and pieces about how fucked my brain could be. Kind of takes the edge of enjoyment of geekdom to have “my brain feels completely buggered” articles scattered around. So it’s time to pull the bipolar out of geekdom and blog about them separately. And so is born Bipolar Realm

Today, Thursday 6 February 2014, is Time to Talk Day – an initiative from the leading mental health organisation Time to Change:

24 hours in which to start conversations about mental health, raise awareness and share the message that mental illness is nothing to be ashamed of, neither is talking about it.

So it seemed an apt time to get myself sorted and start conversing properly about bipolar, how it’s affected my life and how it continues to impact upon my everyday life. At times it could be NSFW as I may well be frank about this, that and the other. I’d considered blogging anonymously, but removing the stigma from discussing mental health issues works best when people stand up to be counted and listened to without hiding behind shields (though I can fully understand why so many sufferers do).

I’ll be cribbing previously published bipolar-related material from here to get Bipolar Realm up and running. And then I’ll start posting new mental health material very soon.

Time to Talk Day - Join the conversation

Each year 1 in 4 of us will experience mental health problems. And sometimes it’s the little things that make a big difference.

Time To Talk Day 6 Feb 2014.

Stigma - we've got it mapped

Left Brain Right Brain.

Posted: 14 September 2013 in health
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Left Brain Right Brain

10 September is World Suicide Prevention Day.  Approximately one million people die worldwide every year from suicide. Spread love and remove the stigma surrounding suicide. International Association for Suicide Prevention.

World Suicide Prevention Day 2013

Bipolar Disorder - it's like having an amusement park in your head

I hate being bipolar. It's totally awesome.

In the middle of January I set myself the goal of blogging each and every day. That lasted for a week or so before I failed grandly. Sometimes I can’t think of anything to blog about – life being throughly unexciting at present – or a bipolar-related low hits me and I can’t even be bothered to turn the computer on or fire up a tablet or smart phone. Once upon a time I managed to knock out “Musings” of a couple of thousand words but that creativity is failing me at present. Hopefully this bloody Quetiapine will begin to settle itself down and allow some productive thoughts once again I’m beginning to understand why so many of those with bipolar refuse medication because they know it’ll fuck up their creative juices. I’m certainly  feeling juiceless at present.

When I was diagnosed as having bipolar at the back end of last year I was taken off the medication I’d been taking for the unipolar and placed on Quetiapine. This medication is an “atypical antipsychotic” and one of the newer ones used in the treatment of bipolar, tackling both the manic and depressive aspects of the illness. For the first few weeks I was placed on an initial dosage of 200mg. Quite frankly it left me completely zonked out on most days and left me feeling as though I’d had 10 minutes sleep and that my brain had been stolen by the Spanish Inquisition (whom no one ever expects). Too low a dosage of this particular antipsychotic can frequently have zombification side effects.

When I saw the psychiatrist earlier this month for a follow-up she took note of the zombification effects of the dosage and upped it to 300mg, which I believe is the more usual dosage. It’s been a couple of weeks now on the higher dosage and I think I’m beginning to feel the benefits as I now longer feel like one of the premiere walking dead every morning. Just one of the standard walking dead like anyone else who has been forced to leave their warm comfy duvet.

I’ve also learnt when it’s best to take the Quetiapine. Within 90 minutes of taking the medication I am a near-unconscious wreck who makes little sense and needs to pee before going to bed. Some might say that’s normal for me late in the evening.